"One Day, Someday"

One day, someday, I’ll lose weight.

One day, someday, I’ll take a chance.

One day, I’ll have the energy

To get my butt up and dance.

One day, someday, I’ll start that business

One day, someday, I’ll like the way I look.

One day, I’ll have the courage

To finally publish that book.

And one day, someday, we’ll own a home.

One day, someday, we’ll travel again.

One day, we’ll renew our vows

In front of our family and friends.

But, one day, something will happen.

It’s not a matter of if, but when

Something earth shattering is coming -

all good things must come to an end.

And I think of that at inopportune times,

Like when I’m studying his face as he sleeps.

I wonder if God will take me, or him

And it’s enough to cause me to weep.

We can be laughing, having a good time

When the morbid thoughts begin.

But once they’re thought, they sink in

And torture me without end.

And I don’t want to keep living for “one day”

And I don’t want to fear “someday” so.

I just want to enjoy my time here

To see how I can thrive and grow.

I just want to love my husband.

I just want to be a good wife.

Without wishing my days away

And wasting what’s left of my life.