"One Brief Moment"

For one brief moment,

You were there.

For one glimmering moment

your eyes were clear

and your mind was sharp

and you were my Daddy again.

And so

I unburdened my heart.

I poured my

anxiety and heartache

out to you

and as my lips trembled

and a lump formed in my throat,

you frowned.

“Don’t cry.”

I tried not to

as I told you I was

no longer asking you to fight.

As I gave you my blessing

to do what was best for you.

And so, we talked about our options

a moment longer…

…before you were gone.

The clarity in your gaze disappeared

and your mind wandered

to the pretty nurse, and

to your keys and your wallet

and the location of your beloved car.

And so, I was left without your answer.

But, I guess that was my answer.

I’ll do right by you, I promise.

Others may not understand.

They may question and doubt me,

and that’s okay.

Because I understand

why they question and doubt me.

But you are not happy here.

You are suffering.

Day in and day out, I see you in pain.

I see you in sickness.

I see you confused and scared.

I see you struggling.

And I know any other option

will only prolong your suffering.

I know any other option is selfish,

And I’ve been selfish far too long.

But I won’t be selfish anymore.

I’ll do right by you, Daddy,

No matter how hard it is.

I’ll bring you to the house

you made a home

And I’ll love you,

And I won’t leave your side

until the day you leave mine.

Thank you for this extraordinary life you’ve given me.

Thank you for being the best Daddy you could be.

I’ll love you, forever and always.

Now sleep, Daddy.

Find peace.