"Frightened of the Dawn"

You’re rambling on incoherently

With that glossy look in your eyes

While I sit here, wordlessly,

Simply trying not to cry.

I’m struggling to listen

As you recall your violent daydream

Wishing I could make you see

That nothing is what it seems.

As valuable time is stolen -

I hear the clock ticking away -

Counting down your breaths

Memorizing the things I want to say.

I’m terrified of the world

Where you currently seem ensnared.

As I sit here, so flipping helpless.

And hopeless, and hurting, and scared.

And it’s frustrating, that you’re just inches away

And yet, we’re miles apart.

That I can touch you with my fingertips

But can’t feel you with my heart.

I would kiss your wounds all day if you’d let me.

I’d dry each and every tear.

I’d listen to each confession.

I’d calm any of your fears.

But it seems, you’ve found my weakness.

The one way to break me down.

You’ve discovered the one place you could hide

Where our love isn’t enough for you to be found.

And the world keeps turning.

The sun keeps burning.

The wind keeps blowing;

The flowers growing.

I’m trying to figure out how to go on

Trying to do the things I’m supposed to do;

I’m doing my best to figure out

How to live in a world without you.

Determined to do what’s right for you.

Struggling to do what’s right for me.

Hating to see you losing yourself.

Or at least, the Daddy I know you to be.

We’re caught in limbo, you and I,

With you not quite here, and not quite gone.

On the constant cusp of twilight.

I’m frightened of the dawn.